All the way back in February I did something that upset a lot of people. It was unintentional in every sense, I do not like hurting people. But nevertheless, I did it.
How do you go about apologising when you have a lot of trouble saying sorry? It’s like being unable to say ‘I love you’ when you’ve been hurt in the past. ‘Sorry’ is used by most people absentmindedly every day. I use the word sorry when I accidentally bump someone, I use it when I’m in the way. You hand someone something and they drop it, you say sorry. What’s that all about? The word Sorry is loosing it’s worth. I feel that by saying sorry I’m not meaning it. I’m just throwing it out there and expecting it to work. It won’t.
I am aware that this blog will possibly reach the eyes of one of the recipients of my apology. But how do I get it to reach the eyes of those who won’t see it on here?
”Apologise in person” I hear you all cry. Read the above. If this is what they need from me, then I will do it. It will make me very uncomfortable, a big ball of anxiety and muddled words – which will inevitably come out wrong and make things worse. Apologising in person will not go well for anyone involved.
Mr B, I am truly and unequivocally sorry for my behaviour. I hope that you can forgive me, one day.